人生匆匆數十載，我還擔誤什麼呢? 今天收到一位auntie的來電，有點兒意外，又是來說服我到英國留學讀書。事實上，有好的人力資源作好盾，有機會難逢的契機，有一定爭霸的實力，我理應到外闖一闖。正是我有實力，所以我才希望證明自己有立足於香港的能力，本土的學士學位課程即使再怎樣艱難，我也要考進去，這是我其中一項價值! 流放海外，絕對是個享受自由的好機會，年輕人最渴求得到的莫過於此，但同時我意識到這個家需要我，試問以我的性格又怎能撒手不顧呢? 再加上，在港住了廿年，本土意識已經被建立，要我一下子放棄那些叫喊聲、那些頑皮的意念，對不起! 我辦不到。或許我還未夠成熟，但這就是獨一的我。最要命的，我想還是未解決的她，搞不好，叫我怎樣安心離開呢?

這首歌道盡我的心聲，希望不會實現吧!

Lyris:

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

「步伐是否感覺疲倦了，現實令你感到無奈

只懂每日每夜忙碌裡，兜兜轉轉似沒了沒完

但願讓你知道神是愛，在路上每一秒同在

可否接受這份純真愛，一生歡欣快樂精彩

回家，將傷痛放下，看透俗世謊話

迷失漆黑中，祂總把你念掛

回家，即使新世代全然皆冰冷

在這家裡，有主的愛別再怕

在這家裡，有主的愛不要害怕」

 

以上是一首詩歌的歌詞，對我也有著極大的意義。我脫離邪惡，回家去重新信主，得到新生也是因這首歌。然而卻衍生出另一個問題，我的另一半何時會回家? 還是我根本不配有另一半?